I get asked a lot what does intersex mean. Well, it can mean a lot of different things for people. “Intersex people are individuals born with any of several variations in sex characteristics including chromosomes, gonads, sex hormones, or genitals that, according to the UN Office of the High Commissioner for Human Rights, do not fit the typical definitions for male or female bodies.”(Wikipedia) So people ask what does that mean for me? Well, I’m a girl with XXY chromosomes and ovaries and if my body was to be dug up in 300 years they would look at my bones to tell my sex and my bones would indicate that I was female. Another question I get asked is what parts do I have or if I have both. Well! That is not a respectful question to ask because it doesn’t matter what I got between my legs — it’s between me, my doctor and my partner at the time. No, you can’t tell if someone is intersex, and you shouldn’t treat them like a toy or anything other than a human being. At the end of the day be yourself, live your life, and love like crazy. ~ Gean
I try to remind myself it’s okay not to be perfect. One of my biggest fears was posting a pic without makeup. Don’t get me wrong I love make up it’s fun to do. I finally realized how crazy that sounds though. So here I am with my red skin, blemishes, and my weird freckles. I think social media has become such a strong place for self image but also it’s not portraying a real one. It’s time for empowerment to embrace your insecurities. To truly love and accept yourself for all that you are because nobody’s perfect. We all get old, we all get acne, we all have those days. I think I deserve to eat chocolate and break out or to spend the day reading books I love. It’s ok to not be perfect. It’s kind of overrated. At the end of the day those things make me who I am – raw, real and beautiful. ~Gean
“Every leaf speaks bliss to me, fluttering from the autumntree.” “Notice that autumn is more the season of the soul than of nature.” “I’m so glad I live in a world where there are Octobers.” “I hope I can be the autumn leaf, who looked at the sky and lived.“
In life, you can feel lost at times for a little bit or for a long while and it can be frustrating. Feeling lost can be the result of a lot of things and being lost is not always bad. I’m lost at this time in my life because of coming out of a break up. Break ups are hard on everyone, not just one person. You have a right to feel sad, mad, lost, and forgotten. My feelings are so all over the place because it was the first time I was in love. I fell hard and loved even harder. I opened my heart and my life to someone and I let my walls down for the first time with a guy. And that was one of the hardest things to do. While in the relationship I was happy, loved, and free. But I was always learning more about myself at the time too. The relationship was beautiful and loving and a wonderful one I will hold in my heart forever. You may be wondering what happened. Well, in relationships you grow and learn from each other and sometimes the roads you take don’t end up going in the same direction anymore. At the time I was in a relationship I was going though a lot with my mom having cancer and learning things about myself. College was coming up and so much more. I felt lost at times. I felt I wasn’t good enough or my best self and that’s not a good place to be in because it’s depressing, hard, and sad. So I asked for a break but the break ended up being a break up and to me that was a little surprising, but like I said it’s not just about one person. He had a lot going on too with work and time, and his own things to work on. I support that I’m here for him I want nothing but the best for him in life. I was sad and mad and heartbroken because it ended so fast and I fought for him but in the end I was the only one fighting and I had to let go. I am still letting go. It’s hard, but it is life. Because climbing the mountain will be a journey and sometimes you will fall. But trust me when I say I’m getting back up again and making it to the top because life’s a climb but the view is worth it. Life is a mountain that we are climbing in different ways and on the way to the top we go on different journeys with people, friends, and family but in the end we always make it to the top stronger and as our best selves to see the view.
I feel free, I feel loved, I feel happy. Most of all I found self love. I forgive and I heal. Life is long and beautiful so I am ready for more adventure.