This is me

My name is Gean.  I’m 21 and a small town girl. I love the outdoors and having the cozy sunshine on my face. I enjoy photography, reading, and going on adventures though life. I’m an old soul who has been around for awhile who has seen the most beautiful moments in life, and the saddest too. I go on. I climb the hardest mountains even when people say I don’t have any experience or I’m not gonna make it. I will always learn from my mistakes, get up, and try again because I know one day I will be at the top of that mountain.   I’ll be looking over the world and seeing what a beautiful and wonderful view it is, and what a beautiful adventure it was to get there. So never give up on your dreams, be yourself, and live life with love, peace and happiness.

What’s the meaning of this thing we call life?

Do you ever just have those long thoughts about why and how? Well, I do all the time, and I started wondering about how life is going now and how it was.  But it wasn’t always like this. You see, I have had a long journey from such a young age. I have experienced the good and the bad through many different eyes which not a lot of people get to do. There are 3 things I have seen that have opened my eyes in different ways. Number 1 was Happiness (remember blog of January 30, 2019).

Another of them is love, and love is a big word that can mean so much. You can love things, people, or even a time of day. I believe that love is unconditional and can spread far and wide over distance and time, but sometimes it’s harder to feel it than to say it.  As a kid I was told I was loved but I did not feel it. To me it was like oil on top of water. I knew how love felt. My cousin, who was my buddy, showed me unconditional love. She was as bright as they come. No one’s perfect but I looked up to her because she saw the world and people with eyes of love. No judgment, just love. At one point in my life I asked the person from whom I never felt love growing up if they really loved me and the answer was, “I do, but in my own way.”  It was years later I realized that she did love me the best she could for who I am.  But that’s the thing, some people see or even know love like it has a limit, or it doesn’t fit in some places. I believe love has no limitations or bounds.  It is unconditional. Thank you to the family and friends who love me for who I and and have shown me what unconditional love feels and looks like.  For that I will always treasure . I feel loved now. I know what it means to me. I love my mom, sister and my family who knows me for me, and I want to thank my amazing boyfriend for showing me love has no labels and that I do deserve love no matter what. I know how I plan to show and share my love with the world.

Labels to fit me

Sometimes it’s hard to find the right labels to fit me so other people can understand who I am. Society is always trying to put you in groups, or stick you under some label. I go back-and-forth with identifying as trans or intersex and I do that because not a lot of people know about intersex. I feel like saying trans will be easier for them to get it.

Intersex is a general term used for a variety of conditions in which a person is born with a reproductive or sexual anatomy that doesn’t seem to fit the typical definitions of female or male. Individuals born with any of several variations in sex characteristics including chromosomes, gonads, sex hormones, or genitals.

I’m a girl with xxy chromosomes and ovaries but no other female reproductive organs.

Sometimes it’s hard. People are always wanting to find the right label to fit them so other people can understand them but I believe you don’t need a label to know who you are and you don’t need to label yourself for other people. Live your life in love and happiness , grow and change because life is so beautiful and it’s about the journey not the destination or where you start. I am a strong woman and I know who I am. You should be proud of who you are. ~ Gean

BACON WRAPPED GREEN BEANS

It’s about that time of year when we plant our green beans and savor the fruit of our labor!  This dish is one of my favorites for all year round.

Ingredients:

  • 1 lb green beans, trimmed
  • 10-12 pieces of bacon (approximate)
  • 1 Tbsp oil
  • 1/2 tsp chili powder
  • 1/2 tsp salt
  • 1/4 tsp garlic powder
  • 1/4 tsp onion powder

Instructions:

  1. Preheat oven to 375 F.
  2. Place the green beans in a large bowl and add all of the remaining ingredients.
  3. Toss to coat.
  4. Grab 8-10 green beans and wrap one piece of bacon around each bundle.
  5. Repeat with the remaining green beans.
  6. Bake for 20 minutes, carefully flip the bundle over, and bake for another 5-10 minutes or until and green beans are tender and bacon is crisp.

Notes:

Net Carb Count*: Bacon Wrapped Green Beans: 4.79 net carbs (per serving—serves 4).

*Carb Counts are estimated based on the products I used.  Check nutrition labels for accurate carb counts and gluten information.

 

YUM!